Cocooning + Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome

PCOS

I thought long and hard before hitting the publish button on this one.

Previously I chose to focus only on positive topics, curated carefully and served up strategically on the appropriate channels.

But in the spirit of authenticity and my resolution to #LiveMyTruth in 2018, I’m going to incorporate more real talk on the blog. This is life and sometimes it’s not all, well, martinis and mascara.

You might have noticed that I haven’t been as active recently. I’ve been going through some some shit, both physical and emotional, which has resulted in me posting less and withdrawing from life in many aspects. So, I just wanted to take a minute to be real about why I’ve been MIA both on the blog and IRL.

For quite some time I’ve been feeling extremely depressed. Exhausted. Anxious. I get sick to my stomach after almost every meal. My periods are few and far between… and when I do get one, it’s not pleasant. I break out literally everywhere. I can’t sleep. I’m constantly gaining weight regardless of the amount I’m eating or exercising. Oh, and I grow a stupid amount of facial hair. If I didn’t remove it every day, I could very easily create a tutorial for Captain Jack Sparrow’s goatee braids. (I wish that was a joke.) It’s been a vicious cycle of feeling shitty and then feeling shitty about feeling shitty.

So after literal years of wondering what’s wrong with me?, visits to dozens of doctors (and counselors… and tarot card readers…) of all kinds, a Manhattan Endocrinologist named Olga finally solved the mystery. She diagnosed me with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, a chronic hormonal disorder responsible for the multitude of crazy symptoms I’ve dealt with for as long as I can remember.

This explains SO much about my life. I’ll spare you an attempt at a full scientific explanation, but essentially my body just isn’t equipped to process what I’ve been putting into it (for like, ever). I’m insulin resistant, so eating the wrong foods has been causing my body to create too much testosterone, throwing everything off kilter and making me feel (and consequently, act) whack AF. Continuing to eat the wrong things can exacerbate the symptoms and eventually lead to worse health problems.

Aside from the superficial symptoms and the mood swings and the bullshit, possibly the most devastating of all of the complications paired with PCOS is infertility. Even though I’ve admittedly been on the fence about having kids and as happily childless as I appear to be, being told that it may not be possible for me has affected me more deeply than I could have ever imagined. It’s one thing to choose not to have children, but another thing entirely to be told you can’t have them. (Here’s where cycle of sadness starts over.)

BUT! I am not about to lay down and let this defeat me. I’m on medication now and following doctor’s orders to try and get my system back to normal. Since my diagnosis, I’ve cut out sugar, gluten, grains, dairy, red meat, soy, and alcohol. (I KNOW.) Still slowly weaning myself off of caffeine, but I’ll get there. I cheated a little over the holidays (and seriously paid for it), so I’m ready to make this extreme lifestyle change official in 2018. It hasn’t been easy, but I’m hopeful that it’ll be worth it.

There is no cure for this and it’ll always be something I have to deal with… but if all goes according to plan, I’ll be a happier, healthier butterfly soon. Thank you all for sticking with me in the meantime. ❤️

P.S. If you are one of the one in ten women also affected by PCOS and you need someone to talk to, please feel free to message me. This is scary and confusing to go through and I’d be happy to chat with anyone who needs support!

My Personal Care Essentials

[This post is sponsored by BabbleBoxx.com on behalf Simply Summer’s Eve®, but all opinions are my own.]

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I’m getting ready to travel to Florida for the holidays, so it’s time to make sure I have my must-haves in stock to pack with me! No matter if I’m jetsetting or just jogging uptown to the gym, I make sure to keep the products that keep me feeling fresh on hand.

I absolutely have to have a quality dry shampoo. It’s an amazing way to refresh your hair if it’s dirty… and even just add some oomph if it’s clean! I’m also obsessed with lip balm – especially living in NYC in the winter time. I also always keep essential oils on hand. I love different blends for different reasons, but love to keep calming oils on hand to help me keep my cool when things get stressful.

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I also love keeping the Simply Summer’s Eve® Cleansing Cloths on hand. These are super handy because they’re individually wrapped and easy to carry around in your purse or gym bag when you’re on the go. I LOVE the Mandarin Blossom scent. And the formula is gentle enough so it won’t irritate your sensitive skin! They’ve also been clinically and gynecologist tested for safety. They’re the perfect addition to your personal care routine.

Check out more info on SummersEve.com!

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Tomorrow Sleep Mattress Review

Hi beauties! As you might have heard, I recently received a Tomorrow Sleep mattress to test out and review.

I have to admit I was a little skeptical about the quality of a mattress that rolls out of a box, but I can now honestly attest that this mattress is amazing. Definitely the best hybrid mattress I’ve ever slept on. Sleep is SO important for overall health, so this couldn’t have come at a better time.

Tomorrow Sleep sells a smart sleep system with the mattress being the MVP. The system includes pillows, sheets, comforter, and drapes. On the tech side, they also provide a Sleeptracker that records your quality of sleep based on certain metrics. You can buy each of the products separately, but the idea is that a better night’s sleep isn’t just about the mattress, but about an entire ecosystem. (Their sheets and accessories are just as awesome as the mattress!) While they are a separate entity, they’re backed by Serta Simmons Bedding and thus have over a century’s worth of research, development, and insights.

Tomorrow Sleep gives you the best of both worlds as it allows you to experience the pressure relief of memory foam and the support of a dynamic coil system. The mattress also uses temperature regulating technology invented by NASA to put you to sleep in real time. I opted for the Medium Firm variety of the memory foam hybrid mattress and have been getting the best sleep ever since I switched.

Ready to get one for yourself? Use my code MASCARA150 for $150 off any $500 purchase from Tomorrow Sleep!

No B.S. When It Comes to Birth Control Failure

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Martinis and Mascara is not only beauty-positive and body-positive, but also a sex-positive, judgment-free zone. So, when my friends at Her Campus reached out with the opportunity to spread the word about Plan B One-Step®, I couldn’t say no.

There’s this preconceived notion that it’s weird or taboo to discuss emergency contraception, but there shouldn’t be. Life happens and it’s important to be aware of the options you have when it does. There are also a variety of myths about emergency contraception and the “type of girl” who uses it… and I have quite a few things to say about that.


Plan B One-Step® has literally been used by millions of women*, myself included, and I am absolutely not ashamed to admit that. In fact, I’m thankful that an option like this exists because, well, things happen sometimes.

Condoms break, you forget to take your birth control pill, whatever. It doesn’t mean you’re reckless, it means you’re human. And as a human, it’s important to take the risk of unintended pregnancy seriously.

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Plan B One-Step® emergency contraception is a backup plan that helps prevent pregnancy when used as directed and taken within 72 hours (3 days) after unprotected sex or birth control failure. The sooner it’s taken, the better it works. It should be used as directed. It’s now readily available over the counter, and can usually be found in the family planning aisle at many retail stores. No prescription or ID is required, and there is no age restriction.

It contains levonorgestrel, the same hormone used in many birth control pills—just at a higher dose. Plan B One-Step® is not an abortion pill. It will not work if you are already pregnant and will not affect an existing pregnancy. About 7 out of every 8 women who would have gotten pregnant will not become pregnant after taking Plan B One-Step® as directed.

Before I used it, I was super nervous because there were some ugly rumors floating around my high school that got me thinking I’d be ill after taking it. Some women may experience side effects, such as a period that is lighter, heavier, early or late; nausea; lower abdominal pain/cramps; tiredness; headache; dizziness; breast tenderness; and vomiting.

If you have any questions about whether you should take Plan B One-Step®, you should ask your healthcare professional. Learn more about Plan B One-Step® at www.PlanBOneStep.com. Use as directed.

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*FDA drug use review, December 2011. https://www.fda.gov/downloads/AdvisoryCommittees/CommitteesMeetingMaterials/PediatricAdvisoryCommittee/UCM288778.pdf.

[This post was sponsored by Plan B One-Step® via Her Campus, but all opinions are my own.]

#HappyHour: A Guide to a Blissful Life

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While I love to blog about the fun things in life (read: cocktails and cosmetics), I think there are other essentials worth talking about.

I have a generally sunny disposition and try to take an enthusiastic, optimistic approach to life. Guilty. People often ask me what I’m smiling about or how I manage to “stay so happy all the time.” I usually joke and blame it on all the caffeine or my Disney princess training. But the truth is, it’s something I work at every single day. A few years ago, right around the time I launched Martinis and Mascara, I set out on a soul-searching mission and decided to put my happiness first, to not let anyone or anything else control it, despite other obstacles I was facing at the time. And it’s not always easy.


I’m well aware that life isn’t always sunshine and lollipops (and martinis and mascara).  There are endless elements in this world attempting to drag you down. That’s why I find self care, emotional health maintenance, and attending to your personal well-being of utmost importance. I think it is necessary to get your mind right and to choose happiness. To chase it, to create it, to cherish it, and to take charge of it. And I want you to do it with me.

I believe that your happy hours are just as important as your happy hours.  

And so, I’m introducing a new recurring feature on the blog – #HappyHour. I’ll be sharing advice, support, thought-starters, ideas, and inspiration to guide you on the path to your most blissful life. It’s something I practice in my own life every day on my personal mission to harness happiness and never let it go. If you are ready to create your happiest selves, I invite you to join me at #HappyHour. We can do this together! I’ve been wanting to write this for a while now and couldn’t think of a better time to debut this new feature than on this International Day of Happiness.

Cheers to martinis, mascara, and the pursuit of happiness! See you at the next #HappyHour! 😉